I wish my body would let me do what I can to catch up in school. I started late cause my old school didn’t send in my transcript and all the progress I had on one class was deleted cause it was originally the wrong class. For some reason (even though it’s my best subject) I am behind and failing in my English class. My body is breaking down, I’m more tired than I have been, I haven’t been able to keep my head up for longer than 30 minutes, and the essay I just started I can’t find any reason to write. So many new stressors are coming into my life and I can’t keep up in my health or in my school work. It’s less than last year in work load but I already feel like I’m drowning in guilt. It gets so bad I physically cannot do anything, I can either sleep, eat, or ponder killing myself. It had gotten this bad before and I barely made it out. This cannot be happening.