I'm tired not like physically but emotionally. I've give so much and I care so much for my friends but I don't even know if they are my friends, I feel like they just put up with me like they don't really care. I feel likes shit like no ones loves me. I care and love soooo much for the people I care about but I feel like no one really cares for me, I don't even feel like my brother loves me anymore. I'm just a piece of shit and disappointment. I'm so fucking stupid im failing classes. I feel like my parents died just so they wouldn't have a son like me. I genuinely disgust myself sometimes. And now I'm back to square one where I want to kill myself. I though I got better and I never did. I want to vent to my "friends" but I know their mental health is bad too and I don't want to make it worse on them so I'm on this fuck ass site. I just want someone to love me. Truly love me from the bottom of their heart. But ill never find love. Who would love me.