i have friends and family but i’m not close with anybody. i can’t get out of my head to build stronger relationships. im scared of speaking. everyone i’m friends with has better friends than me and my family doesn’t even know me. i feel lonely even with many friendships and a stable family. i wake up to no new notifications. conversations i have are funny and enjoyable but meaningless. no one really knows who i am. what i struggle with. i can’t reach out and no one sees through me and tries to open me up, so i lose either way. i guess i want someone to reach down to me to save me. to be eachother’s favorite person. how stupid.