I hate myself so much i hate existing, i hate it when people look at me or talk to me or agknoledge my existance it makes me feel so awful Im so scared no one cares about me and i want to cry to bad, i want to sob and sob in her arms untill everythings better but i dont even have her anymore, i ruined everything and she hates me and everyone else does too, or at least they dont care enough about me to listen to my problems. im scared, im terrified and so so exhausted i cant do this anymore i cant live another day like this I cant, i have no one anymore, ive lost so many people, the best people in my life god took away and why? what for? so i could be more miserable probably i genuinely feel like the world hates my guts for no reason and my feelings dont even feel valid to me.