and I'm not just a parasocial girl who just wants her ex back. I was fully convinced she loved me. but I saw her saying to her crush that she's juts with me because she's scared if I hurt myself. and she said when things get better for me, she will break up w me. I saw this and couldn't stop crying. I broke up with her because I didn't want to put her into more pressure. I told her some random stuff I thought about. I just wanted to make it easier for her, so she doesn't feel awkward when she would finally break up with me. she still doesn't know the real reason I told her to end things w her. she thinks it was because i needed time. it hurts my heart so badly. I miss her. she said she will still text me but she doesn't, amd that's fine. she has a new girlfriend and moved on, unlike me. I have to accept the hard reality. and live with this terrible weight in my chest. I lose my sleep due to overthinking for her. I love her. and I miss her. I really thought we had something different...