I know nobody's gonna read this, so I'll put it here. My life is getting worse and worse every day. My grades don't even match my expectations anymore and school is killing me overall. I don't have any real friends I could talk to, because I either have to be really weird to match their energy, or they're just mean. And my so-called 'friends' said they can't trust me. Like whatever, dude. Just say you want me to leave you alone and you hope I'll kill myself someday. And now my sister is mad at me because I was too tired to go to the bookstore with her. She hasn't talked to me for 3 days. I recently started making myself throw up whenever my grades got worse, because I promised myself my life would get better and my grades would stay great. But no, it didn't get better, and my grades and my life actually got even worse. Anyway I don't know what else to talk about, and my head is actually spinning right now, so yeah.