i feel like the worst person to ever walk this earth omg i have the most beautiful perfect partner ever and i was just looking through my journal (priv twitter) and i found posts from months ago where all i did was shit talk them like genuinely what was my fucking issue dude And it’s all okay now like i love tjem again???? i dont think i ever didnt love them but i certianly was not acting like i loved them. but now i love them a LOT and it leads me to this other problem where we’re both 18 now and i want to move in together but im medium/high support needs autistic and i dont know if i can live without a caregiver and if i cant live without a caregiver then i cant live with my partner. i feel so helpless i feel like i can’t do anything and i am so sickeningly jealous of everyone who isn’t me