Sometimes it's like I feel nothing. Like Im in all these complex relationships, and sometimes I'm stressed about it but mostly I feel apathetic. Basically me and my ex were friends for years before dating, and then we broke up. It ended on iffy terms and I befriended another one of their exes while in a sort of avoiding them phase. I'm now back to being close friends with this person and still friends with their other ex who hates them. I don't feel like doing anything about it. I let one talk to me, I decide on one thing. The other talks to me, I decide the opposite. Ultimately I do nothing at all. I don't feel like a person. I feel like.. I don't know. I never feel human, but I don't feel like a Person. I don't feel like I should make decisions. Like I should have to. They should be made for me. Always made for me. Never fucking do anything myself. God I'm fucking pathetic