Can’t find any rope or something to hang onto. Sodium overdosing causes nausea and vomiting and confusion, and since I live with my family it’s be pretty noticeable. Someone would surely notice a missing kitchen knife, and Im sure that the scent of blood from the shower would arouse some suspicion. Trying to find a foolproof method that’s quick enough to avoid any suspicion with accessible tools is a lot harder than I thought. Maybe I don’t want to die. Maybe I just want to sleep forever, which might be somehow even more pathetic. This fantasy makes me WANT to die. It’s an endless loop, and there’s no easy end to it.
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