I have many things to be concerned for but my mind always catches up with my neverending feelings for her. My best friend, I keep tryinf to convince myself it’s not like that. She has a boyfriend, I’m praying she truly likes girls and our kiss wasn’t an experiment.. She’s going through rough times and thinking about it kills me because I should focus on just being there for her, I try, but I long for a hug from her so much and evrry single hint of affection in the sloghtest form lures and takes me away and the world stops existing and it’s her with the most gorgeous eyes I’ve ever seen. So many times I’ve tried to distract myself with girls and boys but my feelings will never stop and I will never move on. It’s okay because the pain is sweet and the twist of the knife even sweeter when she’s holding it through so much care so much goodhearted friendship. I just wish I was as much good as a friend as she is.. I just wish I could make her as happy as she makes me.