I miss her. I wish I hadn't been rude to her. But I was also 6 years old. I wish I knew what was happening to her I wish I saw that she was suffering I wish I knew that she'd pray to die I miss her so much Maybe, that wouldn't have happened if I hadn't yelled at her then? Maybe , if I hadn't yelled at her, the universe would go in a somewhat different path where she didn't die? Maybe she would've gotten proper medical attention if I hadn't yelled at her. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe. But she didn't. I did yell at her. I told her I never wanted to see her again. I didn't mean it. It's all Gods fault. Fuck, it's my fault even. It's been so long now. I still dream of her I forgot her name I forgot her face I forgot her smile I forgot what her eyes looked like. I do remember That she did want to grow up She wanted to be a doctor I remember the sound of her laugh I remember her beautifully curly hair. I wish I'd also die I wanna see her again Even if I die.