its been a year since being admitted to the ward for trying to kill myself and i still dont feel happy or different that i didnt end up doing it. I still have no one to fully talk abt it even tho ive told 4 ppl i was locked in there for almost 2 weeks. So much has changed and so much still has stayed the same. I dont know what to do or turn to anymore, i cant talk to my therapist with the limited time and trust i have in her. I am a little cool with her but it doesnt feel like what therapy shiuld or has said to be. I tell everyone how im making great progress but im js lying to not brinbg attention to myself but what i do want is attention. Its not liek its been a phase of me being lonely, its been years. why is it impossible for me to connect witb anyone like i am chill with some people but we well i dong click with them its not like im completely frioendless but it feels like it. Idk if i consider them my friends idk what i consider anyone. I reach iyut to so many people but never