I don't expect to get the best feed back about this, but I at least want to get it off my chest. I'm a transgender male and gender non-conforming. I'm a femboy, which is really hard to be while trans because it makes others confused and think I'm a girl when I'm not. I do wear binders and I can pass physically, but my voice always ruins it. My family is transphobic. They deny it, but it's pretty obvious. My cousin stopped contacting me even though we were really close before. I had to cut off my grandparents because she told me to read the Bible (I'm not religious) and said I was forcing my "beliefs" on her. Everyone uses my dead name, which I'm used to, but it's genuinely painful when they use it in public. They can call me what they want at home, but I can't have them effecting how others see me. There's nothing I can do of course, but I just wish more than anything that I were biologically male. I honestly wonder if I should just pretend to be a girl. Sorry this is so long.