I try and try to talk about my feelings. Im open with people. But they never listen. Im always holding the probloms. Im crying until I can breathe. I want a hug from my mum and her to tell me things will be ok and ill make friends at my highschool eventaully. All I get is her yelling that at least no one in our family has died like my uncle a couple weeks ago. My aunt is devastated and my mum uses that to guilt me. I was so exited to get news about clubs so I could meet people like me in the art, anime or lgbt club. I cant go to any of them. My mum says she doesn't want me hanging out with gay people and the art club is full. I feel dead. There is no meaning in life. No friends. No hope of making any. Nothing to look forward to. Its Friday but im not exited. A school week in highschool(My first full week was this week) feels like the longest time ever. I hate my closest friends. There nice but annoying and my mum loves them. I feel bad for hating them since theyre nice. I need a hug :(