having a child seems selfish in this age. Never mind the toll on your body, mind and life. never mind the other hundreds of reasons a person could Not want a child. theyre all valid. same with the reasons for wanting one. but i still think its a selfish act. Maybe you want a family and the fulfillment that comes with it. but what are you offering a person that didnt ask to be here? i had a good childhood. at least nothing too horrible that ruined my ability to be happy and satisfied with my life. I like my life and im thankful for it. I still dont want to be here. i still dont get why i was burdened with living. To pay bills? to be told i can do anything? To work? To find my own fulfillment? No one reallyyy knows or has a good answer because the only reason i was brought here was love. a beautiful and heartbreaking burden that will forever be the weakness of human existence. Love and hate rule this world and i wish i was never dragged into their quarrel.