hm. broke things off with a guy recently. didn’t bother me much as i didnt think it would last long anyway. i went into the conversation thinking he acted as he did because he just didn’t have feelings for me. not a big deal. just something to discuss. the conversation didn’t go as i expected. he shared that he wanted kids one day. he didnt seem like the type. not fatherly type, not intimate, never had a long term gf, never had a real heartbreak, was about 20/80 when it came to dates and going out. Just played video games and worked from home. For some reason knowing he wanted kids hurt so bad. He knew i didnt want them and that id leave any person that said they did so that there’d be no issues later on. it really opened my eyes. i dont think i’ll ever find someone who doesnt want a child. I am not selfish enough to burden a child with this life. a monumental decision i made at a very young age. 10years old i wondered. Why would anyone choose to be here? Why can’t I choose to leave?