My relationship with my parents is getting worse. I expected it though, but it still feels wrong. They're both self destructive, they actively tear up the house and cause all of us to be on edge. It's not physical abuse, but it's emotional and verbal. When their anger issues and old trauma fucks them up, it's us (the kids) or me specifically who has to deal with it. All of the homesteading, looking after ten pets, that's all expected of me. And when I make a mistake or say I need help, it's my fault and I get punished for it. They always tell me I'm the one being pathetic and irresponsible. They also blow past or refuse to acknowledge the fact I've come to them about my depression getting worse, then wonder why I went from being an all A's/B's to all F's student. If I give in and walk away from a fight, I'm being pathetic and disrespectful. I can't keep up with them anymore and my mental health is getting worse by the day. I never wanted it to be this way.