I feel like such a chud. I want to do sports, do track, soccer and more, I wanna study, do art, cook, read and maybe even clean my room, but each time I think about it, the more miserable it seems. I just feel like laying down, but then I just can’t get myself to stand back up. I wouldn’t call myself lazy, maybe burnt out, but I can’t tell the difference when I blame myself for all my issues. Maybe it is easy to get up and I really am just too lazy? That’s what I keep telling myself, but then I start to cry because I do want to get up! I do want to do stuff and get better, but it’s like my body is weighing me down! Like my legs just won’t move an inch and so I just continue to stare at the ceiling. Even if I do push myself up, I feel like it’s too taxing to do anything, to even think anything.