Im annoyed, its weird. All my life I've always realized that if I did something that was worth being introuble then I had no room to be upset at my consequences. But finally as a junior in high school I'm sick of it. Im sick of always having to be mature for my age and think of the grand scheme of things. Im sick of not being able to be like everyone else, I want to date too. Im sick of being expected to always favor one parent over the other just because they were there for most of my life. Yes I love you but the other parent is just easier to talk to and totally just would've let me live my life. Im sick of feeling weird for being a freaking teenager. Im allowed to feel upset about my situation. Im allowed to not be happy right now, and being guilt tripped or being told this is all apart of gods plan or just overall not getting my way, yeah I'm upset and yeah I understand I disobeyed and I was sneaky, doesn't mean I have to like what's going on.