I hate it. I don't blame my sister as she struggles with her grades due to her adhd and our parents don't believe in it and believe she can focus more. Yet that leaves me with their expectation of being better and for years when I was younger craving validation and wanting to be better than my sister it was fine but now as Im older it feels like there is weight on me that I can never let go. I have no other option to fail. I've had so many mental breakdowns due to this and they will tell me that they don't need me to do as good as I always do such as high 90s and shit and yet after they will tell just to keep my mind strong and a week later tell me the lowest grade I can get is a 90. I hate that I can't talk to my sister abt it because she also pressured and I don't wanna do that to her. I just feel like i have nothing else to offer in my life to my parents other than my grades. My whole value is my grades and my friends don't understand that and bash me for trying so hard. I'm tired.