I can't seem to get over everything that has happened, I keep replaying it in my mind. I keep wondering why I kept saying the wrong things, trying to fix their perception of me, "why did I share too much" "why can't I just fit in" "why couldn't I just get in line" And then comes anger, "I deserve an apology" "they need to be held accountable for their actions" "why did I allow all of this to happen for so long" "why can't I just let it go". I think "they don't deserve peace, they should feel shame and maybe they will change their ways" Then I feel guilty for even having those thoughts because everyone deserves peace no matter what, my chest hurts so much and I'm trying catch my breath and not cry I, just want to let it go and move on and not think about it anymore! how dare these people put me through this! you know what actually I think how dare I allow people to put me through this 😭😭😭😭 I'm trying to forgive it's hard