I’m just so fucking tired. I feel like shit all the time for now reason and genuinely don’t what’s wrong with me. I’m just miserable. And im trying so hard not to relapse again bc I know that people care about me and im finally going to therapy and it would be so embarrassing for the people I care about to find out I sh again. But I don’t know what els to do, it eats me alive. I think about it all the time, everyday it plagues me I just want to do it so bad I can’t even describe it, and it’s exhausting trying to hold off. Idk what to do with myself and I can’t bring myself to reach out to someone bc I don’t even have a good reason to feel this way anymore. I feel like I’m being punished for something I don’t even know. Why do I feel like this all the time? Sorry if this is a lot I just needed to put this out somewhere