Why? Why i can't be better? why i keep messing things? myself? why i can't be i used to be? why i get distracted why i fck it all up? i don't have time, ppl are doing much better? nd here me? i am here getting crushed under pressure? idek atp what i should even do? should i leave this shit? should i leave everything? should i just leave everyone? why i can't go back to the one i was? is it that difficult? why i am stuck? people