Rant #2056

Well I’m feeling like I’m getting bad again. I’ve started more ways of sh, such as plucking healthy hairs, pinching, scratching, picking until I bleed, cutting not until I bleed though, etc. And I genuinely don’t think I am anyone’s first or even second choice besides my mom’s sometimes I stress so hard about my future; academics and social life, so much that I want to take my own life but I’m too scared of the pain and I don’t want to hurt my dogs or mom like that. :/