I think what hurts the most is that I've spent so long feeling like I have to quietly accept whatever people decide for me. I'm expected to listen, behave, stay quiet, and be grateful, but nobody really stops to ask me what I actually want or why I feel the way I do. After a while, you start feeling like your own opinions don't matter. I don't want to constantly fight with my family, and I don't want everything to become an argument. I just want to feel like I'm allowed to have a say in my own life. I want to have things that make me happy, people I can connect with, and little parts of my life that belong to me. I don't think wanting that makes me ungrateful. I think I'm just tired of feeling like I'm living a life that everyone else chose for me.