I'm so lonely I mean I have a wonderful boyfriend but whenever I tell him I dont have friends he doesn't get it usually he says who needs friends its not that I dont try to make friends i try im great with people I do and say exactly the right things they want i know how to be liked but its all a stupid act desperately trying to connect in reality I want an easy friendship where I dont have to pretend im a terrible person deep down im selfish and greedy im overly emotional I will drain someone if im me I know that I wouldn't ever ask someone to selflessly just accept that but I want someone whos willing to talk to me to understand to be there I want to do that for them too I want someone who actually wants me around instead of just when it's convenient lately I find myself crying everyday over just how lonely I am I have been friends with the ordinary and out of the ordinary people yet none of them ever seem like my people I dont think I fit in anywhere and that really feels isolating