why do i feel like something is controlling me? i know. sounds werid. but i don't feel like i make the choices i want to sometimes and i get blurry spots in my vison before i do something i didn't want to do. it doesn't make sense to me. i hate it. i have lost friends to it. i have made friends that arent good for me. its one of the voices in my head that don't go away. i want to feel normal. please, let me be normal. -A.R