I fail nonstop without any wins in between and every small thing I do feels so minimal I cant keep living like this but when I try to get out of it I just keep failing and failing…. Am I this dumb really how long can I keep going feeling useless and never helping ANYONE no matter how hard I try I just keep making everything worse and worse instead of making them smile I make them worry for me I make them sad because my reqcrions are so strong and I can never control them my whole existence is a fail not because of God but because I turned out useless, forgive me…