what am i? am i even bisexual? am i lesbian? do i just have a preference for women? i dont even know anymore. being with or speaking to men never feels completely right. men make me feel icky. any time i even like a guy, everyone insists that they look like a girl or they just have really feminine features. do i just like the idea of men? or the attention? what do i even want for myself in the future? i dont even know if i can see myself with anyone full stop. i dont fucking know. maybe ill never truly know.