Im so tired. I just got home from an amazing night over with my best friend. We had so much fun, and yet i feel so sad. I can't describe the emptiness i feel in my heart right now. I've been clean of self harm for over 2 months, only because my blades were taken from me. But i desperately feel the need to cut myself again. Ive tried everything to keep my mind off of it, (e.g. escapism, drawing, writing, etc.) But nothing seems to work. I keep circling back to wanting to cut. As well as this, i keep having frequent hypersexual attacks. Every single time, i feel so unbelievably disgusting. I want to end it so badly.
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