!!TW!! sexual shit, sh I’m so fucking disgusting, a trash bag filled with rotting food and shit would look Mr. Clean approved. I keep on going on these stupid online chats and getting sexted with “watch me cum”, “fucking f@gg0t”, “what are your fantasies”, “I wanna tie you up and fuck you brutally” AND SHIT LIKE THAT. I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO SOMEONE CASUALLY. IM JUST LONELY. what the fuck was I even expecting, really? But I keep going back. I keep self sabotaging myself, just like I did when I was younger. I keep saying how much I hate being touched or the thought of sex but I keep sexting people and fueling it. I hate it so much, but I already know where that leads. oh well. it’ll all end soon. the sexting, the cutting, the loneliness, the thoughts, me. I’ll end soon. I can’t fucking take myself anymore.