had the urge to write to u, Mark. Daniel Caesar's song "Who Knows" is playing. I couldn't help but think of u. I remember us talking face to face one last time and it felt normal. We felt ok. I was hurt but somehow pag kausap kita, nawawala kagad yung heaviness and I'm stuck in a void wanting to say something. I find myself wanting to spend just a bit more time with you. We said we'd communicate through tiktok. I saw you repost this song with "Graduation but missing my ex" smth smth. I cant help but think na I'll end up looking at u with this song in my head if you ever reach graduation. I really cant believe na you're re-enrolling. I hate that. I hate our last interaction. I can't believe you made me beg you to listen and to stay alive. It sucks. I never thought I'd see you again. Now you're back. I still pray, regret and wish I'd never met you. You're a poison to my system. You're my FIRST love. I hate that everything I do is still somehow tied to you. I'm tired.