idk if im bisexual or a lesbian struggling with comphet. I grew up religeous and used to and still struggle with guilt from being queer. im not sure if i actually have attraction to men or just feel like i need to because its the "right" thing to do. the idea of marrying a man feels like a loss to me and makes me feel like im missing out or just settling for the worse option idk. When i was first kinda coming to terms with the fact that i was queer i had a plan on dating women untill i turned 18 then id settle down and find a husband, I later dated a girl then freaked out when i realised i actually loved her and ended up breaking up with her from religious guilt. I feel so guilty because i was awful to her after the breakup because i felt like i needed to prove that i didnt actually love her or somthing? Im kinda talking to a guy but idk if i actually like him or if its just comphet and this is horrible to say but i think id like him more if he was a girl