no one really wants to talk to me I guess. it feels like my friends are distancing from me? i don't know, and I don't want to. i lost everyone before, and they're the only people here for me. it seems like i only have myself and discord (and mister fox). even strangers care more than my family and friends now. i just wanted someone to yap and talk to, is that too hard for you? is it too much to ask for? ive done so much for you, and this is the unreturned favor you give me. i just want to rot in my bed and sleep forever because dreams are the only place where i have real company that cares. somewhere where i can make a perfect world, somewhere where I can actually be happy for once, and somewhere I can finally smile freely. all just because of one simple mistake. mother, was it real my fault? was it? all those years and you still talk about it. i hated that day. I hated everything about it. what use is there to talk about it, using it against me, what use is there to talk about it now?