I feel directionless. Im addicted to my phone, social media and whenever im not in it I feel drained and my day wasted. I usually am the one that’s left at home since my summer break is longer than my family and since I’m a college student I have more free time. But ever since I started going to college nothing in my life feels real. Everything is fast paced and it’s mostly in front of a screen and whenever I try to take a break I feel drained. Nobody in college is social or wants to hang out. No opportunities to meet new people because I have social anxiety. I try to go out but everywhere I go it’s lifeless. I try to find new hobbies but I can’t stick to them. I feel like I’m just doing the fundamentals but even then I fail to be consistent. I want to socialize but I can’t because of the stress and worry I have knowing I’m neurodivergent and I worry about being made fun off of hurt because I’m bad with social cues.