I am recently feeling very hopeless and lost in life, like I am not doing thing I am supposed to do and what I am doing is actively pissing me off. I don’t even know. Like I am aware and I know that I am supposed to study and apply for jobs if I am not happy with my current one. I also need to grow up and stop being scared of stuff. Like I am still hesitating for a lot. I need need to overcome my fear of embarrassment, it is not the end of the world. I also actually need to follow through things I promise myself. But I am not doing any of those. So what am I even doing. I am just so tired now. I am very much aware I no victim, people are doing better than me in the same state as me. It's like i am actively doing everything I dislike. My work requires me to use AI I am tired of it but I am still using it. I don't know what to do with my life, I feel like all the small things pile up and come crashing at ones leaving me dealing with all these. I don't know if anyone will even read.