I have counted calories for a couple years now but now, I'm starting to feel that I should stop. But I'm part of the transgender umbrella and sadly, I do feel gender dysphoria & body dysphoria. Yayyyy... I was obese as a teenager to eat all of my feelings away but now as an adult, I think I wrecked my relationship with food itself. Weighing, tracking, stress at local restaurants and just to think about the stress on my parents must be insane. I used to restrict my calories very low but now, I just restrict myself to 2k. An improvement but still horrible. I think I am horrified about gaining weight because both of my dysphorias might come back big time to the point it might take my life away. If that happens, I might just relaspse back to square one to save myself. I don't want to do that. Now I'm at a hard rock and hard place. I just don't know what to do. Maybe coming out might help me a little bit but I'm scared that it might make it worse too. I wish there is advice for this