I hate my dad. Hes a fuckign awful person and its just, i find it funny that i love my friends more than my parents. My friends are more like family to me. Theyve been where i am and its so nice. Exept im still a kid right? Im 15. My parents havent given me a phone and my tablet i have (pls dotn call me an ipad kid its depressing) doesnt have a SIM card so i cant comunícate w my friends unless its on my moms phone and she monitors it. Also the fact that ive learnt that being quiet and complient is easier than fighting for myself is so much easier and ends the fight. Im also figuring myself out. I just discovered i have a gay crush. This person I like is just......the best. And i know it will never work bc they see me as family and im fine w that but i just wanna kiss them but id never do it without consent so i already know I'll never get to kiss the person i love. I say love bc its more for personality than looks. Im sorry if this is a bit heavy. Im also an SA aurvivor and i h8 myself