It's complicated because I want someone to talk too, but I also don't want the person to be real. Like, I wish there was a ghost who doesn't have emotions or even have the ability to make facial expressions, and therefore would not judge me for the way I am. At the end of each day, I always feel so heavy, blank, and just so morbidly depressed about everything. I really hate the way I look and I hate how I know I'm destined to never be as smart or pretty as I dream of being. I don't want to talk to someone just for them to easily say that I am pretty or funny or kind to them. Honestly, I've felt even more awkward or just worse in that situation before so I don't enjoy talking about how I see myself to anyone. I wish the ghost would appear and disappear whenever you asked it too and had no face so that I wouldn't stress about what it might feel towards me. Like, if it was annoyed or disgusted. Maybe I'm just crazy.