okay so uh i kinda hate my life rn tbfh ive been unemplyed for 8 months soon(fired), i feel like a fucking looser and uh i also think the reason that i won't find a job would be maybe because I MAYBE perhaps not surely have adhd, i don't want to self diagnose but all the adhd symptoms and articles ive read on how it manifests on adult women (undiagnosed) resonates alot with me, i really want to get diagnosed but i dont have the money to so i thought laybe i should talk about it w my mother? but we have a complicated history so its not easy for me to trust her with that kinda of things. esp ive been telling her theres somethig different with me in highschool and she never cared enough to make me pass some kind of neurodivergence test and she is on vacation rn and i feel like tlaking about thay thru text is weird. I can't even talk ti my friends because they are both going thru some tough stuff and i don't want to be a bother to them or have them try to hype me up while theyre sad