i liked this guy for over a year, told very few people, (he's on my swim team and we became friends and were/are in a friend group with two other girls) and suddenly him and another one of those girls in that friend group (my friend but she didnt know abt my crush) are talking and it's really awkward at practice and somehow i always end up as the third wheel and i js feel like everyone but me has a talking stage or bf or something and im just alone. I dont know what to do bc i wanna be happy for my friend and my former crush, but every time something happens i have to act excited for them but a part of me wants to cry and idk why and im js so frustrated bc he was literally perfect. today at practice THAT friend that's talking to him asked what my type was and i didnt know what to say bc my type is literally him word for word. im forced to smile through it all and it's just a terrible situation bc idk i just want one boyfriend is that too much to ask??