i am so jealous of normal families. i've been getting into screaming and borderline physical fights with my dad at least twice a day now. through the worst shit of my life ive never had suicidal thoughts but ive never been in a state this bad i just want to end it and my brother starts screaming at me too telling me i should just get out and runaway and leave the house and my dad is manipulating everybody and everybody is against me i didnt do shit wrong i just calmly try to tell him how something he did bothered me and he starts yelling and losing it and bringing up a bunch of different things and he changes the story around and he believes things that didnt happen just so he can gaslight himself into thinking he's right. and im struggling in school i'm already failing half my classes and my teachers are telling my parents im not taking classes seriously im so burnt out i just cry every fucking night