I wasn't built to be a single mom, some days I feel like I need a break from my kids, while most days I would just like someone by my side. Their dad come over after months of not seeing them, and while he was here, I couldn't take a break or find myself to find me time, but rather felt complete with someone by my side, us together. I do not have the desire to be with him, but I require family, help and I cannot do this alone. I feel like a failure as a parent because I don't play with them like I should, I am not as interactive, and I am trying to push a bunch of other things to the side so I can give them what they need, and I do not need two toddlers worrying about me. I had to let go of my most recent relationship due to infidelity and there was no reciprocation, so that broke me even more. All I want is a family. I could care less about a "break". I do have family I live with but that's a different story. I don't know....