I've got so much built up that's the problem part of it. It could probably fill a book. The other is the toxicity of my home environment. I suppose therapy isn't free that's why most people vent in places like this as opposed to a journal. But journaling is good too just nobody will see what you're going through unless you tell them of course. Other people like my relative for example, will block you and give you the middle finger over your issues yet they'd stop in unannounced alot or call alot to my fam and go on about their issues. And get up and leave when they were done whining. Mostly unimportant stuff they just want to bitch about. They also promised me they'd keep secret what I told them then yet turned around and told my fam anyway. Idk I hate how fkd up my family is to begin with.