Okay, so I don't know what to think. To catch you up, reader: My mom has kicked me out twice this year over me telling her she can't talk about me inappropriately and demean my character. This last time she got very violent. This last time I have not come back and I have cut contact on all outlets. she does still have my gmail though and I blocked her on there, so everything from her sits in my spam. After venting about my thoughts, thinking about what's happened thus far, etc, I thought I'd see if she's tried to talk to me, and she has?? but they aren't mean messages??? But she was nice to me the first time after she kicked me out too so I don't trust her. And she sent them to me less than 2 weeks after she tried to get my dad to have his lawyer claim I was deranged and needed to be hospitalized (I dont even know anymore.). But it feels so nice yet so bitter to read that she loves me, that she wishes me a good day every single time, that she calls me by my nickname, and thinks of me.