Hi. Life's been hard. Waking up every day is a huge struggle. about a month ago, I lost my mom. now every day, I wake up with a heavy heart. I no longer believe life is worth living. I have no energy, no motivation. Me and my boyfriend have been having problems. we almost broke up. no one notices that I can't handle this. I feel if I tell them, they'll just tell me I'm being dramatic or that it'll eventually go away, but i don't think it will. I even relapsed, after being 6 months clean. I have a drug addiction. and I'm trying to get right with God. I'm getting baptized soon, and I want to try and stop sinning. I want to see my mom in heaven. but all I want to do is end it. because I feel I have no purpose left on this Earth, but I know i do because God still has a plan for me. but it's so hard. I guess this may be a cry for help, I don't know, but i might end it soon, I'm trying not to, but I might. anyways, I'm sorry for ranting. a hope everyone is having a good day or night.