Yesterday my mother told me I was getting too fat, which I am, i admit it. Genuinely I'm already so done with being the joke, being constantly fat shamed, being told I need to lose weight, I do need to lose weight but I genuinely can't, getting out of bed is like a chore to me, everyday I wake up and think to myself "I don't even want to live anymore" how the fuck am I supposed to excercise cuz I'm genuinely just a lazy fuck , Self harm and pornographic content is like the only way for me to feel something, I relapsed again yesterday, idek bro I'm prolly attention seeking for doing SH in visible spots, I don't even want to eat anymore, I mean they want me to lose weight so I guess I'll lose weight by not eating and I don't wanna eat either, I'll try to vent to my mom and she'll say kids can't be stressed and my shit is minor like genuinely they pmo so much. life pmo so much, I didn't even fucking ask to be born.