honestly idk anymore. this summer I've been getting better from my depression, as last school year I was severely depressed, and I thought things were getting better. but I guess they weren't lying when they said depression never really goes away. its worse now. I feel like I'm constantly annoying my friends and they don't wanna be friends with me. all my online friends that I genuinely care/cared about either forgot about me, or idk are just ignoring me / being dry. I try to be loving and caring, as much as I can. I don't know what I do wrong. I cant draw, Ive lied all my life about that. the one thing I'm supposed to be good at, I'm not. I'm so done with this, I wanna cry and scream and just.. I feel like I'm losing my mind. I cant socialize anymore, after depression, my communication skills have become shit. I'm so tired of everything, the people I care about are all leaving one by one.. atp Im just gonna fucking distance myself from everyone man. what else is there to do..? -Lottie