How I'm feeling this year. I have multiple classes with a past abuser and I'm horrified but whenever the words come out to tell someone they can't come out or I get ignored by the teacher. The only one who knows now is my best friend Tom and he has given me more support then any one and I've known him for FOUR DAYS, the only reason he found out was because my Gmail opened and he caught the "Hello" "I kill you🤗" from my past abuser two years ago and he noticed whenever I see him I turn and walk the other way. That's all he knows and he walks the other way with me, and I'm too scared to say anything else. Keep in mind Tom is the only guy-friend I have had since J (my past abuser) so I haven't been able to trust a man as my friend for TWO YEARS, which isn't alot but feel like it when I was hurt by the other friends even one I had a FIVE YEAR FRIENDSHIP WITH and she ended up dating my GIRLFRIEND. (By the way I'm a girl)