I’ve kinda just been feeling down because a friend dropped me (of three years) like… exactly 2 months ago today. It really hurts, she wasn’t as invested and constantly put me down. She didn’t care for me as much as I did for her. I’m glad I’m not in that situation with her anymore but it sucks. Every single relationship I’ve been in (platonic and romantic) have left me empty handed. I have no real friends anymore and no one really wants me for who I truly am. I constant have to hide aspects of myself because of others judgement. I’m tired, but if anyone’s wondering I’ve been like coping with it by faking high self esteem. But now I come off as a narcissist. I know just because I don’t have friends the world isn’t over especially because I’m not a social person anyways.. but I don’t like being alone again, I haven’t been alone for awhile. I forgot how much it hurts. (I know my grammars prolly off lolz but bye bye)